Today will be a veri veri long heart-felt post . Cos i dint blog for a few days alr . I noe it's not veri long . But i like writing my thoughts down . Somewhere, somehow .
Hms . Let's start with e not so happy stuff .
I was playin audi with kai ytd . couple dance . den i saw long long , supposedly to be HER fren . Ohkayes . den long2 says tt SHE is another guy's gf . How complicated can things get ? I went to call Mr chen den . HE turned on his temper on me . fuck rite ? nabehs . It just doesnt pays to be kind luhs . Forget it . I'm not caring anymore .
Sometimes i find myself silly u noe . I still love HIM . yet i noe i SHOULDN'T be with him le . Cos we alr CANNOT continue . I will have TWO images whic keep on flashin and flashin. I simply cannot forgt them !!!!
One - e neoprint which THEY took . ESP the one which they KISSED !
Two - HE cried for me .
Hais . I tink the reason why my heart still aches is cos .. i still cannot forgt him . I will rmb these two memories . One makes me hate him , another makes me wanna love him more . I noe my love for him is strong . But is HIS love for me strong anot ? I doubt so .
Knowing a gal for less than dunno how long lesser than me . den .. they alr like wad liao .. i dunno wad to say ..
Im sorry GIRLS .. I need time .. to forgt .. I need time .. to be alone ..
Sometimes when i have something happy .. i don see myself having someone to SHARE that joy i have .. i just makes me feel downright terrible .. my joy seems to have halved this way ...
I want him to treat me badly ... at least this way , i noe he doesnt wan me anymore . TOTALLY . den i will feel more hurt .. i will give up then and there .
Actually i've gt lots to say .. but seeing this blank screen , my mind goes blank too .
Hopefully i can go to work soon ... den maybe .. time will heal my wounds ...
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Enough of sadness luhs .
Today saw chweefang online leh !! So long dint see her online le .
Been updated abt her just now . Looks like she's not studyin le . Cos gotta retain . I dunno if it's a good choice anot , but so long she's happi , it's all that matters . ^-^
She also started to work le ! So becoming more more pretty le . Chio bu yi ge ! Workin at bugis street wor ! Hms. den i can go see her next time bah . hees .
Not onli that happie thing . I have also level-ed in audi le ! Im officially level 11 . I noe it's not high for some ppl . but it's a high level for me . At least i can say tt i passed my licence own my own leh ! don mind e number of tries . but at least i did it myself ! yay ~ !
Hao le lah . i dowan to pretend to be so happie when deep down im not . forget it .
Signing off .
From Mabel; with ♥
4:28 PM
