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Monday, May 12, 2008 ♥

I just let him choose what he wanted me to scold him. Stupid dumbdumb PET! PFFT. He can make me scold him bunny, pineapple, chocolate... So many! He never choose. I tell you. One day he'll be the death of me. !#@!#$!$@!#@!

Anyways, i think that my feelings i thought i had for Yuxing are like dying real real real soon. It's like, i totally don't feel any love from him know.. It like.. Stinks lah.

I wanna feel loved.. And of cos, i wanna love too. But is there insurance for the heart? To make sure it doesnt get hurt? To make sure it's protected? To make sure that it doesnt shatter, it doesnt break?

NO. There isn't.

And really, sometimes i wonder if i'm turning lesb. Since i'm like, a lil bit outta being an adolescent, i think that maybe it's my fate. To be lesb i mean. Like ah fen jiejie. She also became one wad. Suddenly it feels right you know.

Like maybe gay is the way.

What the hell i'm talking about! I think i'm going crazy lah. PET doesnt even seem to know HE is PET. Keeps asking me about PET leh. Like how am i supposed to say?

"OH. Erm. PET uh? PET is you lah."

NO please. I think that's social suicide.

Plusplusplus. I aint sure of a lot of things.

Things like.. Will he be neow (stingy) like mrchen anot. Or will he be really really nice. Or will he be able to make me happie? All these things are very important ok.

Lastly, i need a sign from him. Like.. I'll be really comfortable with him. Maybe even fart or burp in front of him? =| Joking luh. I don't think there's anyone that can reach that stage yet.

PET uh PET.. Don't be so dumbdumb le can..

Onegai.. Daisuki desu..

From Mabel; with ♥

11:29 PM

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