♥ Mabel's P I N K paradise . <3

Monday, October 29, 2007 ♥

Sometimes the pain really stays you know ? I know time heals. But till now , nothing much is seen for me .

Mr Chen . Why did you have to raise my hope till so high just to bring my down to the harsh reality all over again ? Do you think it's nice feeling that way . Since the start of 14 May 2006. The promise was started. Everything you did , everything you said . Were they all lies? I really don't know you anymore .

Where was the guy who i know will stand up for friends?
Grab free tshirts given by school ?
Buy me food whenever i was feeling hungry ?
All i want is you .

The old Mr chen .
I hate the new one .
Do you know how much u SUCK right now ?

You are the most materialistic bastard i've seen right now .
Appearance don't matter and you know it .
You have changed .
From someone who really cares ;
into someone who PRETENDS to care .

You should know how much i hate pretence .
It sucks . you sucks . why did you have to do this ? No reason ?

你知道，你以前对我的好，我一点一滴，记在心里。
那你呢？转眼间，把我忘得一干二净。你怎么会舍得这样做？
我恨你，但却还爱你。
你不知道我心里的感触如何。
应为你的心，已经没有在意我的了。

My online friend asked me . "What do you feel like doing?" I told him i was blogging down this entry. But deep down . I know what i wanted . i want to die so badly. so so so badly . why am i send down to earth to feel all these hurt and pain ? I DON'T WANT ANY OF THIS AT ALL ! havent't i suffered enough all these years ? i hate this feeling . i don't like the way my life is at all . someone ; kill me . and i'll be grateful to you for eternity .

Maybe just like how this song depicts my feeling. She is just an innocent third party, the problems between us were already there before she appeared. Even if she disappeared right now, everything also wont be back to normal. i cant put all the blame on her nor on anyone else. cos in a relationship everyone is at fault de. No one is completely right or wrong.

Mr chen wont read this i noe . But cant he feel the hurt im having ? cant he feel the pain im going thru ? cant he even miss me just a little ? It hurts .

From Mabel; with ♥

1:23 AM

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